It's a difficult thing to truly know your own limits and points of weakness.

I am no longer writing in here. I might in the future but I need to get off of here.


latersandpeace

Well I do, and its not a good feeling.

I think its time that I do something about it.

I do not feel good today. I feel like my head is about to explode.
Bah, I hope I am not getting sick.

I dont feel like typing much so I will go now.

Also, I am serious its time to do something about it.
If you can't get it once then I guess it's not going to happen.

latersandpeace.

Ugh, yeah I know here I am again hoping that someone will read this. Maybe a select few will read this and then again maybe not.
I am ok with my life right now. It could be better but it could be worse.
I am right now trying to come up with a saying that no one gets, but really I cant.
I used to be pretty good at writing but now a days I have been sucking up a storm. I think I know why. That old saying you dont use it you lose it. Well I think that has come in play with me.
Blah I will get it back though. I swear I will.
Ah, I am in the process of learning Japanese. I love that language and always have wanted to learn it but never tried as hard as now. Because of the fact that if I learn it Justin will take me to Japan! I am being serious as well. I will work my ass off for it.
I want a stable internet connection.
Fuking (yes, fuking) internet companies always got to be a lot of money for a decent internet speed.
Till next time kiddies

latersandpeace

I havent been here in a loong time.
Lets see what has happened well I got a new car for Christmas and a few months later Justin totaled it. So note to self never let him drive a really nice and fast car. Lol
Anyways, I am hoping to get enrolled into the Art Institute Online in the fall now. And this is a promise to myself I am going to school and will be in school next year! So yeah...I want to get into game design so I can start making some decent money.
What else is there to talk about. Nothing much really... I mean I have been stuck at home...got the internet for a little bit. Yay, lol dont take the internet for granted. I learned that lesson as well.
Justin is doing fine and dandy. Oh yeah got a little puppy as well his name is Diesel! So cute he is a minature Chihuahua. He is our little hell raiser. Lol
I am going on a diet as well. I hate the way I look...I really really do. Ugh so I am going to change myself for the better. Also I have been hanging with my best buddy brandon which is awesome. God I dont know what I would do with out him...wait I know rule the world! HAHAHAHAHHA! ok maybe not but still!
Hmmmm what else....thats really about it. Oh we are looking forward to moving out soon...and yeah...thats about it with me...
Hmmmmmm to make this entry more interesting I will put a joke in it.
Knock Knock
Who's there?
Ima Pirate
Ima Pirate who?
I'M A PIRATE ARRRRRRRRRGGGHHH


no.



ok...

betch...

latersandpeace

Will, Justin and myself are making a movie. It will be kick ass....


Trailer will be up soon so everyone can point and laugh....
*sighs*


Anyways, till next time kiddies

latersandpeace

Well my brother let me get on the internet today....which means I might could get my router back on it.
I am happy about that.

And yeah. Nothing exciting is happening. Just taking care of my dad, and hopefully next week we can leave him alone for some short time.
Plus he is doing a lot better.

I lost something, but now I cant find it...damn it



my entries on this is getting shorter and shorter.

Oh well

latersandpeace.

4:16 ergo inimicus vobis factus sum verum dicens vobis?
-- Galatians, 4:16.

Anger is the most impotent of passions. It effects nothing it goes about, and hurts the one who is possessed by it more than the one against whom it is directed.
--Carl Sandburg

Maxime peccantes, quia nihil peccare conantur.
-- Erasmus of Rotterdam.


The more you know, the less you need to show.
-- Unknown.

First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.
-- Mahatma Gandhi.

Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.
-- Murphy's Law of Worsening.






....end of it

I just LOVE I mean absolutely LOVE the feeling of being ditched.


It really makes me think of how people really are.
Cant lie to me....

Its all good...Karma...

and their conscious will guide them......in the end.....



oh well, makes no sense to no one but me, bah it shows in the end, that it does,

piss me off and I feel bad for you...really bad.


latersnadpeace

Merry Christmas to everyone and all have a happy and safe New Year.

And umm, yeah

MERRY CHRISTMAS AGAIN AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS and all that wonderful crap.



^____________^V




latersandpeace

Well it may seem that we wont come home Tomorrow...one cause of Justin's stupid school schedule...I mean it seems like the teacher doesnt care about the students that have to go home! >=O
two I just heard that tomorrow is the busiest day of the year for airports...which I am thinking TRAFFIC from HELL
Three, if we do travel home tomorrow we wont leave till probably after 5 which I dont want to leave cause driving at night sucks ass and we wont get to Atlanta till like 1 am and I wont be able to see my dad or Brother....and I wanted to surprise them...but it would be a surprise seeing me in the morning, ^O^

But at least we are coming home soon. Justin's stupid alarm isnt working right cause he doesnt know how to program it... And now we are packing...I can not wait to come home...I cant wait to see my family and hang with my friends, especially Brandon.

Florida was fun, I mean we went to Epcot and that was cool, it was a very cool and pretty place and it had awesome rides. Daytona was awesome and I kinda wish we could go there before we leave but I dont think it will happen, oh well...
its actually getting cold down here. But I know GA will be even colder.... T___T
just when I got use to Florida's weather...

Well till next time I am hoping this is my last entry in Florida...I will miss it but hey, thats what memories are for.

latersandpeace

Hello everyone, time for another boring update...Its raining here and its getting cold. Hopefully, it will warm up and it will be all sunny again but god only knows. Justin is doing fine in his school and getting to build subs and all that stuff I have no clue about, but I soon will... -_-
Our check, again HOPEFULLY, will get here by Saturday, and I need to go christmas shopping plus we owe my dad $150...heh...thats no fun and not to mention we start paying back the loan this month too.
Blah, I missed the deadline for CT, which royally sucks...now I have to start in March...unless I can enroll late but I dont think they will let me.
I need to get my life on track and stop procrastinating....like the saying goes, "procrastination is like masturbation...in the end you are only fucking yourself"
lol, I like that saying...
I can not wait to get back to GA...only 2 more weeks to go...I just hope nothing has changed...meh...
I am starting to hate those words: meh, blah, and bleh. Yet I still use them. I need to stop doing things that I hate.
I have no idea when his aunt is leaving....oh yeah and today my tire was going flat and we had to change it...the fix in it (that tire changed at B&N that day) was bad...so we have to get that fixed.
I am still working on my website. Its going ok, and I cant wait to get it all ummm, ashley-fied as I would call it...
Well I am off to play, yes, CHRONO CROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Best.Game.Ever. well sort of ^_^

latersandpeace

well another day down in this stupid place. I mean its ok down here and it would be cool if this was really like a vacation well I mean if it felt like one. It feels like it has been forever since I seen everyone which is funny cause its only been about a week now... My depression has gotten a little better, I mean I still cry now and then, still everyday though. But its better than every other hour.
Blah, we are broke as hell...we have $7 in the bank and our check hasnt come yet. I think its funny but at the same time it sucks...it sucks knowing that I cant get something to drink or eat without worrying about going negative. It sucks having responsibilities. I mean really sucks...this place sucks worse than North Carolina.
Another thing is I am getting a little pissed off that I am being accused of not being social and I guess lazy...blah, old people... I dunno what to do anymore...I want to go back cause this place sucks ass!!! Or maybe its because I feel like I am trapped cause his aunt is here as well and she is mean....errr, can be. But meh, whatever...





latersandpeace

Yesterday Justin and I went to daytona, and it was beautiful...I mean all the troubles and worries flew right out of me. And in came tranquility....I love driving on the beach too and plus we saw Daytona speedway but sadly my camera was dying and erased all the pictures but luckily I got some pictures...after I found out that they were all deleted T_________T

Blah, Christmas is on its way, blah. I am actually looking forward to Christmas only because I will be home for it.
I can not wait for Christmas this year.


^^


^^

^0^

there is daytona beach, yay


latersandpeace

Well its getting ok down here...I mean I am use to the fact of being alone for eight or less freakin' hours.........But meh, I have cried and cried hoping Justin would be like, "its ok...I will talk with the school and see if I an take them on line...now lets go back to georgia."
But noooooo, hmph, dumbass crappy school that looks like a dentist office..........
Blah, but oh well....We might go to the beach this weekend...That would be nice, except I hate getting sunburned >=O
I have this huge blister waiting to be popped but I cant pop it cause it hurts T______T
I still hate Florida but I still like Orlando.
I wanna go home AS WELL...................................................................................................................
It sucks being alone.
Yeah...it does suck....big time...



latersandpeace

picture one of his school...



MEH


..........



more to come............trust me I will have the time to do it.....


latersandpeace

Well today is Justin's first day and its weird here...I mean I have no clue what to do...I mean its a really big area and its weird!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And I dont wanna put the miles on my car and I cant play games all day long... T_____T
Blah, it would be funny if Justin is the only student there. I wanna go to Japan, now that would be cool.
I dont wanna a part time job, however it would pass the day and give me money ^^
But I hate working close to Christmas and I might could get a job on the web, oh yeah ^_~
I still hate Florida...It sucks balls when you are not here for vacation...I dont wanna go to Disney World. Why? Way too much damn money. But the beach would be cool, and its only about 45 minutes away and its Daytona beach. That would be fun, even though I hate the ocean ^^
I miss my daddy and Brother a lot, and not to mention my mom and friends...especially Brandon.
I am glad to know that I have people that are looking forward to me coming home. I would gladly come home if I had the chance...but meh. I am here alone and I hate it. I hate this place so much that I resort to crying to comfort me. If I had the chance to change it then I would have done things completely different...

I love and miss everyone... a lot....
I hate this...No one knows how much I really hate this place...No one knows how miserable I am right now...All in all dont take your home for granted, or anything else to that matter, cause you never know how much it really means to you, till you dont have them....
I learned that the hard way...too many times, actually.

laters&peace

I am in Florida and it sucks....Only because there are no starbucks around here nor that many un protected wireless networks...And my wireless comes and goes...but I do have some pitures =)

a freakin winn dixie



lots of those down here though


=)







thats all the pics for now. oh yeah justins school is VERY VERY SMALL.... =/

laters&peace

Well my month in Florida starts today well....this morning, er...whenever...

BYE BYE georgia... T_____________T
See everyone on Christmas eve.


Yay, well at lest I have my cell and my laptop.


^__________^ ------------> T_______________T



lol, well till I am in Florida

Laters&Peace

Well today I got a laptop and very very proud of it. I was disappointed at first cause I didnt get one but oh well. Now see why.


I love how laptops are ^________^

All I need is this and my honey and a drink plus a cig.


Yup thats all I need


Laters&Peace

I have learned not to get my hopes up....
two days in a row I have got my hopes up.
Meh, I just need to take days like they come and try to change them when I can. Make days worth living.
Thats all I can do now.


Meh


Laters&peace